New Year A Fresh Start....

Happy New Year !   

I can scarcely believe that 2013 is over and we are starting fresh and new. I like millions of others are contemplating what our New Year resolutions should involve. If you are like me, I fail miserably making resolutions. I want to change so much about myself that I quickly become overwhelmed and give up.

If I wrote my resolutions down every year they would look something like this..

** No fear family I don't drink or smoke and I don't have an ex. or a job.  LOL  

 I've come to realize a major fear I have. I'm afraid to fail. I don't know how to explain it in a better way. I've been afraid to fail in a lot of major areas. I'm afraid I'll fail as a friend, as a wife, as a mom, as a grandmother, as a Christian. 

As a child I never learned how to roller skate, ice skate, snow or water ski, swim, climb trees-gates-or fences, jump off porches or from the back of truck beds. As I would attempt to do these things fear rose up in me. It froze me in place and gripped me. 

As a teenager I never joined in after school events. I didn't try out for the cheer leading squad or the tennis team. I didn't try out for a part in one of my favorite musicals. What if I couldn't do it. What if the other kids laughed at me. What if I failed. 

I quit going to college. What if I flunked out. 

What if I failed. 

What if I could never get a job. 

Fear ruled over me. 

I am setting goals this year. Goals that are attainable. 

I am going to ask God to help me overcome my fear of failure. I know it's OK to fail. 

I have family, friends, and a God that love me. 

The Bible tells me 365 times to "Fear Not" I want to Fear Not. 

I know those of you who know me well will see my 2nd goal is a biggie.  

I want to talk less and Listen more. 

OK, you can laugh here. 

I'm waiting for you to finish laughing. 

OK that's enough. You can stop now. 

I want to love myself more by 

doing some things that will be good for me. 

I want to eat less processed foods and

 drink more water. 

I want more family and friend time

more pictures

more dinners

more silliness 

I want to put God first in Everything. 

I want to Value God's word by Studying more. 

I Want to Know God more intimately.

I want to share God's great love and Christ's sacrifice. 

I want to take a few minutes everyday to be still and Listen 

for His voice. 

I talk a lot to Him too.. and then forget to listen for what He has to say. 

I want to give more. 

Laugh more. 

Appreciate more.

Smile more.

I want to celebrate more. 

I want to Love more. 

Some goals I will struggle with. Some will be a breeze. 

I love taking pictures and being with friends and family 

Those will be easy. others will be more of a struggle. 

I am confident that putting God first will be the key to all the rest.

I'm praying for you as the New Year begins. 

I'm praying that you will begin 

or renew your relationship with God. 

He is the one that has plans for you, 

and He'll help you achieve success.. 

Leaning To Trust God Even When The Word Is Cancer...

  Over the past few weeks I've realized how God has grown me in the Trust department. As those of you who know me have seen, my middle name is panic. I don't like it, but it's true. I've decided to share this Trust journey here. Probably more for myself then for anyone else. I want to write it. To express it or try to express it. I need to get it out and on paper. I need to have a record of this journey so I can go back and see each step that God led me through. I attempted to write it in a journal I keep by my bed. I just can't do it. My handwriting is atrocious and I doubt that in a year I'd even be able to understand it myself. If I write it here then family and friends, who want to follow the journey, will have an easier time of it.

   I will start here by saying that this is not my journey. It's my husbands journey. I'm walking it with him. Prostrate cancer was the diagnosis. Cancer was the word. I won't share a lot about husband's feelings. to be honest he doesn't say much. I really think it's personal enough that I should let him share it with you himself. I will from time share some of his thoughts.These writings will be about my journey with him through this. My time of learning to Trust God even when the word is Cancer.

   I do want you to encourage the men in your life to begin getting their PSA tests done when recommended by their Doctor. You can Click here for more information.
The PSA test (yearly blood test) results alerted our family Doctor of the need for a referral to a Urologist. I'll go into all that in another post, but I want to make sure you encourage your fathers, brothers, uncles, grandpas, cousins, all the men in your life to have this simple blood test done. Prostrate cancer is very treatable when caught in it's early stages. The next post will catch you up to where we are today with this journey. All the tests and referrals take time. I'm not so good with the waiting thing either, but God knows that and Thankfully He just works with me on one area at a time. This time it's being Quiet/Calm and Trusting Him, Even when the word is Cancer.